"You Are My Company"

The clock doesn’t strike

midnight,

     —at all.

It just ticks

     and ticks

until the hour

touches

twelve

     and ticks again

some more.

I lie in bed

and I wonder

about what thoughts

go through your

mind

when you cannot sleep,

and midnight has struck

      once or twice

      already.

Do you think

of me

with a dazing fog

of melodious words

that make you

fall in love?

Or do you

think

only of what

I say

and make everything

sound

so

screeching deafening

to

your ears?

I think of you

and what it’d be like

to have you

in my arms,

     —to be in your arms

to have you

hold me.

I love you.

My thoughts

of you

are my company

when I cannot sleep.

I’m quite sad

and restless,

in fact,

because I know

that you cannot

sleep

when you think

of me.

Though it may seem

flattering

to the ears,

given much thought,

it’s quite a depressing

story.

You cannot sleep

over the thoughts

you have of me.

I am your misery,

though I wish I

was your company.

--; December 11th, 2012

This is a story about the sad parts of love that every person has gone through. We go through these different stories but we all learn to feel the same things (kind of). We feel the insecurities that love brings from time to time, and this was meant to show that.